Another sigh.

I wanted that so, so, so bad.
And I know it seemed like I was being far too intense about it. But if you knew how badly I wanted it... if you knew--like I knew--that it was entirely possible, if I just tried hard enough...
...Then you'd understand.



I think a blog on the subject of honor is on it's way. I have had several thoughts about it lately. There are several voices in my life, telling me things about honor. So of whom I agree with; others I do not.


I've just been looking at pictures from this past spring.
Man, I really, really wanted that.

I'm not sure it will ever happen now.

And that's a problem because I built my life around it.