Don't close your eyes...

When I close my eyes, I see a nightmare.

A torrent of rebellion.
A deluge of evil.
A flood of sin.

I see myself inundated in my insurrection.
I see myself flush with false happiness.
I see myself engulfed in shame.

I am the cause of my own nightmare.
I know all of it is my own fault.
I don't want to see it any more.
I want the nightmare to stop.

Why must I chose the things which separate me from Truth?
Why must I prefer the carnal to the spiritual?
Why must I continue in revolt?


Change me, O God, that I might not sin against Thee.